Life

Hmmm.... turnout to today's sports activity wasn't good. Perhaps people were tired or slept in since it was rather early in the morning. =(

Played a little basketball while waiting for others to turn up. Learnt a little on how to shoot but felt rather weird doing those movements. >.<

Switched to badminton after that which was rather funny since a friend was given a 'handicap' by playing with his left hand instead of his right. Hehe... turned out to be rather entertaining. =)

OH! Played a little shooting hoops game which the guys taught us. Got really stuck in the first positinon but moved on pretty quick after that. YAY!

Fun fun fun day!~ =)

Played football and netball in the main sports hall with my coursemates again.

The netball game was pretty funny since most didn't know the rules and there were a few basketball movements here and there. Hehe... hilarious.

Headed for lunch at 'Dirty Duck' after that. It felt really nice to hang out and talk about fun stuff instead of work. =) HAPPY!

I am finally done with year 3. Gosh it has been a mad run. Finished two actuarial papers yesterday and had a paper this morning. Needless to say, I didn't study much for today's paper and probably just passed.

Oh well, that's over and done with. =)

Hmm... oddly, this whole sense of having nothing to do feels so new. I keep feeling I am being lazy, I'm just wasting time and I should be studying or doing something. Then, I realised I have 4 long months of holiday!!!

Studying, worrying being pushed to the limits with assignments and tests for 5 long long LONG months really takes its toll or perhaps it's the degree.

I think I shall go off now and re-learn how to enjoy my holiday and actually not feel guilty for stepping outdoors, watching a little tv or even sleeping in. Gah.. I feel so deprived.

p.s. it totally dawned on me that sometimes I don't step outside the flat for days and when I do, it's either for grocery shopping or to do the laundry. -.- That feels really sad.

YAY ME!! I survived the 5 hours of exam on a SATURDAY! Whoopee!!! Bye bye probability theory, bye bye principles of finance! HAH!

Finished with mathematical programming 3 today which was okay. lalalaaa...

Next up, another killer two days. Gah! I can do thiS!! I feel so tired, seems as though I've lost the stamina to sit for endless exams. I feel old. >.<

Anyway, two actuarial papers on Thursday (stupid exam timetable), hope my brain will magically remember everything. According to lecturer, we're going to be rushed for time. Sigh.. guess I better practise writing really fast too. Then my last paper on Friday! Wheeee.... though I haven't revise for that. >.<

Four - five hours after thursday's exam to revise. Hope that will be enough. =)

I am happy, for now. Haha... probably get stressed out later with actuarial stuffs.

Tata for now! =)

I sat for my bayesian statistics and decision anaysis paper today. OMG! It was sooooooo long and we had two hours to complete three questions where questions are 3/4 and one question the full length of the page. GAH! Crazy!!

Plus, the questions are in paragraphs, i.e. chunks and chunks of words, no part(i), part(ii) etc. Only part(a) a whole chunk of perhaps 4-5 parts, part(b) another chunk etc. Basically, it's read question start writing, no time to think.

If you don't know and pause to think, you basically run out of time and have no time to finish. So so panicky and stressful!

I was rushing and rushing and there was one part which I didn't know and therefore I just simply wrote something down and skipped it.

When there was 2 minutes left, I finally managed to finish going through the paper, and went back to look at that question. I realised how to do but guess what, no time left! =( So sad lah!

Haiz... no time to check for mistakes and there were other parts which I didn't know how to do too! I think I need to not only study but also practise to write really really REALLY fast.

Now, joy to exams on Saturday, 5 hours in total. I am soooooo dead.

Yesterday was a scary day. For no obvious reason I suddenly felt unwell and the room was literally spinning. I opened my eyes whilst lying in bed and say the ceiling turn clockwise and anticlockwise while the lights moved up and down in a blurry manner. I thought this only happened in movies where they exaggerate things.

Thankfully I'm all better today. That was super scary and frightening! Needless to say, not much studying done.

4 days till exams....

Hope I'll manage to get everything into my brain and make sure it sticks somehow.

p.s. It is totally annoying when answers to past exam papers are not provided. How am I going to know if it's right or wrong? Gah!

10 days till exams! 7 papers, 9 days. I can do this! ^^

On another note, happy mothers' day to my dearest mum!
Glad you liked the flowers. It's the least I could do. =)

Back to studying.... Whee... ~ =P

Just received an email. Exam date changed from 6 weeks later to 2.5 weeks later!!

OMG!!

Such a drastic change! Didn't study for this module since the rest of the SIX papers I take is 2 weeks later and I have 2.5 weeks break after that for that module.

How am I going to finish revising for seven papers. This is not good at all. OMG... I'm freaking out. Can they do this?! Ahh!!!

p.s. the exam is scheduled on a Saturday afternoon right after my morning paper. Total of 5 hours of exam in a day. GAH!

My wisdom TEETH are growing. OW!
One grew out and three are growing at the same time. -.- Only one hurts but thankfully not too much.

On another note, exams in two weeks and I feel so out of it. I need to get studying!!

I had a dream and it was so complicated. -.-

It involved, darkness, fire, water, earth... so many elements. Gah.. I dislike dreams like these, leaves me so tired.

Finance and Financial Reporting revision class today, scheduled for 5 hours but ended up 3.5 hours. YAY! =P

During the afternoon session, the lecturer asked me a question. I was surprised and stunned since I was busy copying. It was a calculation question and I didn't know the answer. The conversation:

lecturer: What's the change of .......
me: Umm.... absolute or percentage change?
lecturer: Percentage change
me: Umm... I don't know

neighbour: XXX%
lecturer: What did he say?
me: Erm... (turns to neighbour) What did you say?
neighbour: XXX%

me: XXX%
lecturer whispering: what?
me whispering back: X X X %

lecturer still whispering: tell him he is right
me: *smile* and said nothing

Aiyerr!! So embarrassing. He went on to ask me two more questions after that. People were laughing and my friend thought it was so funny. I felt so flustered and it felt a little funny whispering back and forth with the lecturer in class. >.<

After a few days of bright warm sunshine weather, it turned into rainy gloomy weather. I felt so lazy to head out and just wanted to stay indoors where it was warm and cozy.

However, armed with my umbrella I headed to the sports centre for the first ever MORSE sports activity -- football! I wasn't sure what to expect but it was pretty fun since most people didn't know how to play. Lots of kicking the air and passing to the wrong person etc.

I am not too sure what happened but I managed to aid in the scoring of a goal. However it was for the opposing team. -.-'' People were all laughing and I was like hmm.. now.. what just happened. Haha... ;P

We played for about 1.5 hours and I felt totally exhausted after that. The aftermath of playing football = body aching and I feel like an old woman. >.< I guess that shows how unfit I am.

We had probability theory revision class today and I think everyone's suffering the same effects. We are a bunch of 'old' people, for now. ^^

Ta-da! New layout with chat box installed! YAY me! Haha.... I should be studying but look what I did with my time. =D

Since friends are asking 'why no access???!!' I guess I shall not restrict the blog.

p.s. I didn't know people were still following after my lack of updates. >.<

Back from Brussels. Pictures with Pei Lynn. My camera's faulty so I didn't bring it along. =( Hope it won't cost too much to fix it. I'm suspecting something is loose inside. When I shake the camera, it switches modes, e.g. from taking pics to review pics. So weird.

On another note, my Swatch watch battery gave out on me. Luckily I still have my Guess watch. Hopefully it'll last till after exams. >.<

Will update more about the trip soon! Loads of DRAMA. Haha... gonna go bathe now.

p.s. restricted blog permission to family members. now, daddy and mummy have access too! =)

Love you all and been missing you all LOTS! Hope the internet connection at home will be working again soon.

p.p.s. Daylight saving adjusted and now the time difference is 7 hours.

Going holiday tomorrow!! YAY!!!

Pei Lynn bully me for access and now she wants to hack into my blog to delete this. Hmmmmmmmm........

Oh, and I didn't bring camera, she said she not going to give me pictures with her inside. Haihhh.... See larrrr.....

Okay... shall stop here in case she kills me in Brussels. Oh noooo.. OHHH I'm safe, she said she will kill me after that cause she don't want to go alone.

Nvm this post if you don't know her. Oh and if you don't hear from me, you know who to ask. HAH!!! Okay.. shall stop NOW.

Often I plan holidays and it doesn't work out.

People seem to be busy and do not have time to go along with it. At other times, people are half way across the world, too far to join me.

So many times I have sat and planned and thought about all the things that could be done. I feel disappointed over and over again. Yet, I still keep planning and looking forward to them, I guess I'm just silly that way.

Somehow it just feels special to be able to think of a place you really want to visit and when you actually do, it just feels extra special. I always feel wary of sharing my plans since I'm afraid it won't work out or just gets ruined. It feels as though once I talk about them, they are doomed to fail or opened to rejection or criticism.

Places I want to visit don't work out. I wait for a few months, a year, two years and still it doesn't happen. I've been meaning to visit a place for such a long time that after more than two years, I just gave up on ever going. When I finally went, it wasn't so special anymore. I guess it just got ruined by all the disappointments along the way. Hmm... I guess I just have to keep trying and someday, hopefully my plans will all work out and I finally manage to set foot on where I would like to go.

I wish my family were here and we could all go together.

-.-''' Sitting in front of the computer doing assignment till it's nauseating. Geez.. thankfully listening to songs on my ipod helps reduce the effect. I never thought this would ever happen. Hmm.. I wonder if there's any scientific explanation to this.

On another note, test tomorrow and then one assignment to rush! I don't feel too stressed out which is rather surprising. I actually feel rather happy. Weird, eh? Hmm.... I think perhaps the computer got to my brain too.

I realise change. I feel change. I see how I am changing which surprises me. I didn't think it would be something one is aware of unless of course if done consciously. It feels as though I am looking at myself from a third person's perspective and I can see how I am evolving in certain aspects. Perhaps everyone feels that way, hmm.. I don't know.

Sometimes I lose myself, sometimes I get so involved that I forget where I am going and what I am seeking. Sometimes I lose track of what's important and what isn't. I feel thankful that at least I do remember them at times when it is crucial and important. Sometimes certain things amazes me. Yet, certain things scares me. Sometimes I can't explain how I know what I know. I really believe someone's looking out for me and I am truly thankful for all that I have.

I am blessed and I am grateful for it all. =)

I am going to be happy.

I miss my family.

As I was walking home today, a thought just came to my mind... this happens quite often, weird random nothing that somehow become a string of sentences in my head which I quite often forget to write when I reach home. Oddly, most of the time they flow into a nice paragraph in my head but just get all tangled up when I try to recall them.

Anyway, I shall try my best of efforts to write them down from now on. =)

I was wondering how it would feel like to be an uncut, unpolished, ''un-found'' diamond. You can mingle with the stones and pebbles, roll around in the dirt and no one would care less. When you're discovered, you're chipped here and there, cut away into pieces, polished and then become a decorative object. Let's say you become a rock on someone's finger, people go WOW when they see you and you might even evoke jealousy or even theft which results in negativity amongst people. Hmm.. just wondering if the diamond were able to think, how would it feel...

If it were your choice, would you choose to be a shiny diamond or would you be contented playing around with the pebbles?

p.s. it is not meant to be emo! it's just a random thought. I guess you could say it's a little weird, perhaps the stones on the way home made me think of it. Haha.. =P

p.p.s. I think I should put a shoutbox so people could leave their comments by the side but I kind of forgot how to do it. >.< Help?